I have changed.
I feel it deep within me. And I love it.
When I'm here, with my friends, talking about the present, I don't notice it. It's just who I am. It's who I've always been to them.
It's when I talk to people back home. That's when I notice it.
Because they haven't seen me change. For them, it hasn't been a gradual process. It's sudden and huge. And to me, they're still the same people that I left. In my head, I'm the one who left, so that means I'm the only one who's changed.
I notice it when I try to catch them up.
When I think about all they don't know about me, about my life.
Trying to describe it all, trying to put it into a nice little package, that's hard.
There is no way to do it. I don't fit into a nice little box.
I don't even know where to start.