Friday, January 18, 2013

catching up

I have changed.

So much.

I feel it deep within me. And I love it.

When I'm here, with my friends, talking about the present, I don't notice it. It's just who I am. It's who I've always been to them.

It's when I talk to people back home. That's when I notice it.

Because they haven't seen me change. For them, it hasn't been a gradual process. It's sudden and huge. And to me, they're still the same people that I left. In my head, I'm the one who left, so that means I'm the only one who's changed.

I notice it when I try to catch them up.

When I think about all they don't know about me, about my life.

Trying to describe it all, trying to put it into a nice little package, that's hard.

There is no way to do it. I don't fit into a nice little box.

I don't even know where to start.

2 comments:

Jessica said...

love you and love your blog. thanks for sharing your thoughts! so great to know that you love the change that is occurring in you :) I hope you have a great time back at school!


Jessica
http://mybeautifulli.blogspot.com/

Annabelle Archer said...

i love reading this!

you have changed, but in the way that you are growing and cultivating some of the best parts of you.

im so glad to call you friend and to witness your journey.